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I would go back to where my husband and I had lived, weekend after weekend (he was still living there), and I would slowly sift through things, packing up what I had accumulated over 38 years of marriage. Then I would drive away and totally lose it and I would cry tears that came out from deep in my soul because the hurt was so bad. I would get a half mile down the road and God would touch me and the joy of the Lord would hit me and I would laugh the rest of the time going back to my girlfriends.
Sometimes I would barely be able to drive I would be laughing so hard. I grew up feeling like I was bad and that there was something wrong with me. I always felt that if someone really got to know me they wouldn’t like me. I couldn’t let go of the past mistakes and hurts that had happened while I was growing up. I continued to seek God, to study his word and to seek his peace and purpose in my life. A few months ago I realized that I no longed felt bad anymore. I finally felt loved and cherished and I knew in my heart that nothing would ever separate me from the love of God, that God would always love me even though I am far from perfect and make mistakes. HE LOVES ME THE WAY I AM, IMPERFECT BUT SEEKING HIM.
My divorce was final Sept 17th and I was hurting so bad I didn’t think I could get through it. God took me through the day with supernatural strength and peace. Two weeks later He showed me my new home. I saw it on Saturday, signed an offer Sunday, negotiated the price Monday and signed a contract on it Tuesday. When God moves, hang on. My head was spinning and my insides were shaking. I was stepping totally out of my comfort zone. I was 63 years old and had never lived alone. I had been in love with my husband for 48 years and married for 38 years. I didn’t know how I was going to afford it but God had it all planned.